I too have spent endless hours in search of some external way to fill up what's missing inside.
In the end, all you have is yourself. You are not going to let yourself shrink to fit the box that the world assigns you. There is no box, no container expansive enough to hold in the strength that you own.
The truth is that you are in charge of building the future you deserve. You can begin today, right in this moment.
My brand of strength is nothing more than a coping mechanism, a way to survive. I rise above the sadness by smothering it with shame, but it’s always there, growing with every disappointment and heartbreak.